Enchanted Mind Wandering Gracefully

She'd been making choices all this time  with little options available. The who's and the why's are irrelevant but it was a long and up hill battle. Those who knew her, often said,  They didn't care what was in her head but to strangers near and far She parted oceans and walked with charm. Under valued is how she felt. Drained of anything, not even wealth. Always told what to do Like no one trusted what she knew. Her thoughts were scrambled, it took her time She medicated others with her wine It took time, for her to understand, they couldn't see The grander plan. The long term tortoise plodding along. She felt she knew an awful lot put in her place with 'that's not enough' She's doesn't try, she just glides through Oh how I wish they really knew... Everyday a fighting battle so much to overcome How did she look up in those times When her soul was feeling totally bummed! She fought like...

Deathly dawn awoke me today, A feeling of dread filled my brain I cried and cried and cried some more, not really knowing why suddenly When I'm feeling so good, badness descends! Dark images and thoughts plague my mind Like the devil whispering in my ear 'you're not fine!' I fight those demons. Without a thought but real life gets me, did I not learn what I was taught? Why must my head keep spinning around... One minuet happy, the next so very down! It's hard to reach out, when I'm feeling so attacked I don't know who to trust, or who's got my back. My insides are emotion... raw, rare reactions. I can't shut them out as they are part of who I am So to those who think I should change my ways? Who are you to judge, please go away... We haven't the time to know all the truths Not all of us can see what is really there I must help those who hate me so much I mustn't give in to their greed and their lus...

As the cool night air, sharply pulled her back into her senses... She felt the slowly steady beating of her heart. A dark silhouette dances across they sky, fleeing the barren dreamless night air. Cold, harsh, unrelenting rain, pelted down from the dark morbid skies. A festering darkness... void of all emotion or feeling. An empty place. still, quiet... alone in the bleakness. As the heavy rain subsides... the sound of splash and gush as waters traverse  towards a great body. Drawn to its destiny like a moth to a flame! (oh how lame!) The bugs chime in with their symphony of chorus,  melodies of nature, smooth calming surround sound. She picks herself up as the rain fades away. She's dazzled by magical tranquillity as the vessel glides with a slam. A moment of forced change... giggles laughter and home found. She jumped to a moment earlier in the day, puffy white clouds Light, dark and contrasting vibrant creations,...

Her mind was being controlled by an external man made force, the ruthlessness and brutality Took all those in it's course. A fearful beast of such proportion  but invisible to the eye, it thrives amoung humanity tainting our souls and spreading lies. I think right now there's a distribution of those who know and do not. She sits here in the middle feeling her perspective can't be topped. For she's lived without, with and in-between  so she can't take it for granted, there's more freedom out there for all the lost souls but minds are crippled and life feels doubted. Are they loosing touch with their own reality can they feel the soft ocean wind, can they walk ankle deep in the sea She starts to wonder loudly her mind can not be dimmed. An explosive chaotic epsiode plain for her to see of harsh and deep strong conscious. She can't turn away nor ignore.. Can they not hear the cries of caution? The bea...

The start of new beginnings! So very precious and rare, Think, take your time... Lay foundation with love and care. Along the way, you'll discover, That riches once now turn to dust. An inner caring of sharing need... Bless the light that keeps us moving. Dense tropical luscious life of green  Entangles by designs of entwined detail, Working effort naked to the invisible eye, We loose ourselves in a glass of wine. When the dawn sun rises bright, a new day brings fresh clear sight. Leave behind the past and focus, Steady breathing as the day springs to life.  A choir of natures influence, the sparrows sung with delight. Excitement transfers to those who stop to listen calmly without fear or spite. Downpour of rain for weeks in end, a cascading falling beauty flows. Full of might and power fuelled by clouds of dark heavy sorrowful woe.  Fear not the mighty warrior for they are full of li...

When things seem bleak  and you are feeling weak... Don't be afraid to cry. When the skies are grey and it's too wet to play Find the sunshine in your heart. You can dance, you can sing, You can literally do ANYTHING... Ride a wave, hide away.. There is always a fight but there is always light Don't ever be afraid to shine  Dancing on a rainy day with so much time for play! The sudden urge to jump about after being inside all day 😂 Leave you worries at the door open your mind and start to explore. The graceful beauty of rich reward stuck in the moment of pure endure 💜 The clouds are lifting around your heart As you breath so free from the dark. The winds are changing and there is hope For everything changes and you will cope  Going within can bring in touch, the beat of life coursing through veins. A mind filled with uncontrollable movement A momen...

Confussion has plagued me all through my life When I am asked what is wrong? I am to scared to say I don't fucking know! Now please go away.... It's not that I'm ungrateful, for the show of concern It's just the intruesion...  From moment to moment, my mind changes course So unless you keep up, please stop and think... If you want my life story, let's share a meal and a drink Otherwise your caring seem shallow and weak It can all feel so empty... Meeting new people is becoming hard for me... I can't help but think... WHat does this fucker need? I am used up and empty, it's just how I feel, It won't last forever... but I need something real. Depression has touched me... And I am not afraid... on the coldest and darkest of days I cry and I grieve knowing this feeling will pass, But I can't help but think its a challenging task Being strong when I'm weak is easy to do, it's when strong acts all weak ,...