Sea glass of hope

Caught in a stormy sea of depression

my vision was deeply effected

My mind didn't know, how to respond

to the absurd ways of things all around me

I could no long walk down the path I was on

the sadness grew deep every day

Nothing or no one could save me from it

I had to take time on my own

I was advised to continue and just pop these pills

So i did and they robbed all my pleasure

Embracing the pain not covering it up

Was the path I choose to recover

I was an empty vessel with nothing to give

but everyone kept cheering me on

The doctor high fived me when I ignored his advice

and he cried with delight at my strength 

He said being a doctor is hard and cruel

but once and a while he sees good

I inspired him that day as I thanked him so deeply

He realised he was doing the right things

He told me to fight and never give up

and to not listen to those all around

he advised I'd be fine if I cleared out my mind

and focused on what made me feel good

Things got a lot easier after hearing these words

a medical opinion that could keep me strong

There are no answers in those pills we are given

just numbness and a lack of true vision

In the beginning I needed that numbness

to slow down my brain to rest my weary head

At the time I felt judged and not really believed

but is was happiness I faked not the sadness

It's been 5 years since I took my last pills

but I still needed time to adjust

I had to create a substantial way

to live in this world of confusion

I broke away from the things that decayed me

and found power and strength all around in the silence

Suddenly life didn't seem so tough

when I slowed down and followed my own drum

The courage it takes to make such a change

was scary and terrified me each day

But no one could help with what I needed to do

I had to stand alone to continue

Today I feel strong but don't get me wrong

there's mind fields scattered around

those triggers can be the death of my spark

so I stand strong as I fight my good fight

When you have nothing to loose

your fear really changes

things have a different perspective

and suddenly the world is quite different

The  sea glass right here is what I collected

when I had nothing else going on around me

I took my time to consider the divine

is the universe really that special?

The power you obtain when you let go of your brain

and wander the beach line and shores

reality is different it's a magical wonder

free for anyone who chooses to dream

I call this my sea glass of hope