Anxiety doesn't define me...

I struggle with anxiety,

I'm not ashamed to say.

I'm just tired of explaining

It can just bring on more pain.

It's easier, just for now

to hide away and think.

Control my thoughts and focus on

A better way to sync.

It's not that I can't manage

or even that I'm damaged

It's all about figuring a way

to break from this horrid bondage.

It doesn't feel like I need to reach out,

it feels better when I seek within.

Considering new perspectives

And beginning the art again.

I'm suppose to find the words to say

exactly what I'm thinking

But in my head there are no words

Just images with deeper meaning.

Art is a way to get it out.

Transform my inner feelings

I can't explain on this day

ask me again 5 years in the future.

The kind of support I need right now

is just to feel safe and normal

My conversations can carry on

When I talk to the right person.

People like to help and say

just go out, its a sunny day

but its not really going to help

when the rain is pouring in my heart

Getting on with it, deprives my breath

I need to take a break and think on it

I have no intention to stay this way

Just let me rest, It'll be OK.

To the one who makes me breath

You make me feel like I'll succeed

FOr that I can't stop counting blessings

One day soon, we'll get our message.

FOr now its time to do some art,

To clear my head for a brand new start

I need to focus on the moment

so in the future... I can OWN IT ;)

Oh can't you see, the art in me

Has been shouting out all along

I need to break the chains of rust

so I'll be free to move along.

It's not always easy, to explain ones feelings

When the head races a mile a minuet.

the emotions are raw I can get out paint

I can draw, write or create

Its the medicine I need and how it's going to be

as i rise above the challenges

determined to succeed.

Positive and hopeful thoughts set my heart on fire.